I have to admit, it's been a LONG time since I posted anything on my other connecting blog little pony's big mouth. This new one, 2.0, is simply just a stem of the little pony branch. The last posts were on the cusp of graduation, or just after, and now having spent my first September EVER not in school, I feel liberated! I feel as if there is this vast, open space in front of me and I have so many options and choices and chances to do whatever I please. Well, I can't go that far seeing as by today's standards everything is time and money.
For the past couple of months I've been simply working. I've been saving and trying to find another job and really just trying to enjoy myself. It's hard knowing what is right for you when after so many years in school and always having guidelines, and then being thrust into this life where you have endless time... it's weird. My biggest change has got to be the way I feel about the environment in which I live. I've become obsessed and drawn to the culture and the heritage that I'm from. What that means, and how that effects me. I've become so drawn to history and the way in which history has dictated our lives without knowing. I've also become quite enthralled with seeing the world. And not necessarily the tourist world, but the cultural world. To live and be apart of the various cultures that live and are amongst us. I want to look back twenty years from now and re-live my twenties with excitement and with dignity. I want to remember that I did and was all that I could be. I didn't throw away those moments or those days. That I had a purpose and I used my time well. I feel so young and on the cusp of life. I don't feel like I've truly lived yet. I've lived the young part of my life preparing for the rest and so far I've had so much and experience so much.
The trip I took in the summer was beyond extraordinary. It was everything I wanted and more. It just showed me how much more I love Paris and I love other cultures. It showed me there is so much more to the world than money and stuff. There is so much more to experience beyond having a mortgage, buying cars and having children, that there are lives and other things outside of the norm waiting to be enjoyed. It was possibly the best timing to be away and to experience all that I did. When you think your life is all that there is and that nothing could be different, you need that jolt of excitement and realization that what you want is possibly what others have told you you want. I truly believe that life is a journey, that it's a test of your ability to just 'go with it', and if you can sit back and enjoy the ride and just make sure you are always present, then you will find happiness and a great journey before you.
I've always thought I was more mature for my age than everyone else. Maybe that was a little naive, but the more and more I live and the more I grow, I realize that I'm lucky to have the mentality I do. To be able to reflect and not focus on the little stupid things, and to just appreciate everything around me, has given me the ability to be happy. To look at what I have and be excited about what I can make of myself. I'm excited, simple as that.
